Sometimes big changes sneak up on you. You are married with a baby and a whole future ahead of you and surprise! your husband has a "little" problem that you didn't know about. Or you are expecting a healthy baby and surprise! you have a baby with some, um, missing ribs.
Other times you sneak up on the big changes. You contemplate having a baby and finally decide to get pregnant. You think a lot about quitting your job and you finally decide to do it.
This time, there is no sneaking. I know (and the change knows) that today or tomorrow is a big day in our life. A lot of things will be decided in this 48 hour period. Things WILL change. Big things.
I hate waiting. In some way surprises are easier...there is no waiting for them. They just pounce on you and you have to react. (I think that is why I procrastinate. As much as I try not to, I am more of a react-or than a proactive person....but I can do ALL things through Christ who strengthens me, including becoming proactive)
Anyway, I am waiting. There will a phone call to Michael and then a phone call to me. Then there will be a phone call to Brandi and to my parents. There will be a text message sent. There will be a status update on Facebook and a blog post.
As I am waiting I am trying not to worry. I am giving it to God. Over and Over and Over. I need to CAST it. AWAY FROM ME. Onto Him.
Surely God is my salvation;
I will trust and not be afraid.
The LORD, the LORD, is my strength and my song;
he has become my salvation.
Isaiah 12:2 KJV
Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is life not more important than food and the body more important than clothes? Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life.
Matthew 6:25-27 New International Version