Friday, July 09, 2010

The amorphous shape of my blog

When I started my blog it was called "Our Miracle Baby" or something like that.  It was a blog all about Kaedra and her successes. I started it while she was still in the hospital and it helped to keep people apprised of her happenings as well as a place to post pictures of her.  Most people couldn't go up and see her in the PICU and so they kept up with her through my blog.  I even blogged when we went down to San  Antonio for her first surgery. It was a really great tool.

After Kaedra came home, and as she was integrated, gradually,  into family life, the blog eventually morphed into a family blog.  A name change was in order and it became "Our Peculiar Life."  I loved blogging through our days, posting pictures, writing down funny things so as not to forget them, posting music I wanted to share and occasionally sharing poems or songs I have written.

I have started to realize that Facebook has ruined my blog. Basically, my blog is obsolete. I keep up with all my friends on Facebook; I write about the funny things on FB; I share songs and other things on FB. Furthermore, FB has gotten me in the habit of writing very short posts. Writing a whole blog post seems much more daunting now.

I took many poetry classes in college. In all the classes, we were advised to use as few words as necessary. "Cut, cut, cut!" was frequently heard from our professors.  I wonder if 140 characters or less fits their concise requirements?

I don't want to give up my blog.  I like it.  It's pretty.  I get to create on it. It's an extension of me.  A place to make "all my own." But I need to give it a reason for being.  Just doing daybooks doesn't seem reason enough.  One reason to keep it is that the things I write on FB are eventually hard to find...hidden in myriads of posts.  I can't easily look over the things that tickled me about my children or important things that I wanted to save. Although they are there, they are barely accessible (I wish FB had some kind of searchable archiving system on each person's page...sort of like tags) Another reason to keep it is that it reminds me that I need to keep writing.  Not just short, pithy statements, but real writing.

So I am thinking on it.  Trying to decide what to do with it.     Trying to figure out a direction for it.
Giving it to God.  Waiting to see what he has in mind for it.  As always, when I give something to God, excited to see what He has in store for me.  It is always SO much better than I could ever think up!

So I guess you could say this blog is under construction as of now.  God's construction. I will be awaiting the results along with you.


Susan said...

I have seen so many people who get on fb slowly let their blog dwindle. I was very hesitant to join fb for that very reason and held out until just before Christmas & my B.D. last year. I pleaded to myself that I would get off fb if I felt it was causing me to neglect my blog.

IMHO fb, while fun, and certainly fast and read by more, does not have the depth that blogging can have. I join you in prayer as you wait for God's direction on your blog. Especially with the move back home it seems like an opportune time in your life to do so. Love you and know it will be good!!!!

Shirley said...

Can't wait to see the direction in which God takes your blog!!

Melanie said...

I know that God has a reason for your writing and I also know it is not limited to 140 characters. It is too important to be deemed a "tweet", and too deep to be merely an "update".

Blog away my friend, and as water seeks it's own level, so will you. You will read over your posts and see a pattern begin to emerge and you will realize that you are already going where you are going...

Deep stuff, huh?